Old people

I don't want to get old. I especially don't want to get old and sick. This makes me think about dying alone after a long period of prolonged suffering, perhaps after having lost mental function. This is not how I want it all to end. Old people remind me that I am going to get old and die, and I am not ready to face this because my life so far has been a big self-indulgent bust. I have accomplished nothing.